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Bright Eyes

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I’m convinced that our little Elle is the sweetest baby in all the world. Her sweet little smile brightens every one of my days. Life with her is no easy task, even though she’s such a good baby for the most part, but she is worth every hour of sleeplessness and all the time spent caring for her. I can’t image any little one better. I feel so privileged to be her mama. Here are a few images of our bright eyes from a week ago or so!

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Elle and Mama

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I shared this a week or two ago on instagram, but I wanted to expound upon it here as well. Motherhood feels like the gentle rise of a tide. It isn’t something I really noticed until it was high and had overtaken everything in it’s beautiful current. What was once small is now vast and powerful. It’s a love that can gently caress like waves on the shore or become as fearsome as a torrential storm. It is something I never expected. It’s pull on my heart is greater than I ever imagined. It’s is both painful and completely wonderful at the same time. It’s an undertow I gladly let overwhelm me. By drowning in it’s waves I found a new way to breathe. Motherhood is changing me like stones under rushing water. It sweeps me up and yet is so gentle and gradual. My heart is lost and found in motherhoods paradoxical ocean. And I don’t mind one bit that I’m far out in it’s sea.

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Eleanora | 3 Months Old

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Our Eleanora. I’m convinced she is the sweetest baby that the world has ever known. She is such a good little girl. I feel like we are coming out of the fog of newborn-world and into such a fun stage in her babyhood. A lot of people ask if I “just love being a mom” and I really don’t know. I sure do love her though. I love taking care of her. I love playing with her. I love being with her. I love her in our lives. It is amazing to watch how she has changed things, but how we’re still the same simultaneously. We drag her everywhere with us and I hope it can stay that way. She’s a fun addition…most of the time!

Weight: We don’t really know. Our scale is terrible. I’d wager she’s gained at least a pound since 2 months. Her thigh and neck rolls are some kind of wonderful. Her length is a little more impressive than her weight though. She’s incredibly long. She’s as long as some babies up to 7-8 months! I feel like she barely fits in my lap anymore. She was 25 inches at 2 months, so I’m pretty sure she’s longer now.

Clothing: We’re definitely filling out the 0-3 clothes! A lot of them are too wide and too short! Ha! Let me also say that it is SO FUN to dress Elle. I wish I had some of her outfits in my size! I mean, just look at the faux-fur vest and pompom hat…yes on so many levels.

Sleep: Hello feeling rested again! Praise hands! Most nights she sleeps at least 8 hours. Her naps aren’t very long during the day though, that is unless I’m holding her. I think we just lucked out with a baby that sleeps well for the most part.

Eating: I think she’s mastered the whole eating thing…as evidenced by her leg rolls and chubby cheeks. I am excited that she can start baby food in the next few months!

Personality/ Mood: She is a fairly quiet baby. She really doesn’t make much noise unless its eating time or she’s sleepy. She seems laid back and easy going. I often wonder what kind of little person she will become. She loves showing off her smile to anyone and everyone these days and will let anyone hold her. Sometimes she gets fussy for no reason, but she is mostly happy as long as we’re giving her attention or if she has something fun to look at…like the fireplace. I love waking her up in the morning (after her early feeding) because she’s so happy. She’s all smiles in the morning and I could live in those moments forever.

Loves: She is totally into her playmat now. She will happily spend hours there sometimes. “Standing up” is also her favorite. She also found her hands and feet this month and she’s pretty fond of them. I can’t keep her hands out of her mouth for long…unless she has a blanket, her foot, her shirt or something else in her mouth instead. (We may have a teething baby soon I think!) I think she loves my singing. I sing to her almost all day. We make up funny songs about changing her diaper, bath time, outside, my work, and countless other things. It won’t be long before she’s laughing at me not with me, so I’m eating it up while I can. I think she loves me too with the way she looks up at me with such adoration in her blue eyes. It feels like I’m her favorite person in the world…and I think it might be true. It’s a pretty amazing feeling.

Doesn’t love: Not being the center of attention, and being held for too long when she wants to play.

Things I want to remember: She laughed for the first time about a week or so ago. She sounded like an adorable squeaky toy. I’ve tried to replicate it every day  since. Apparently, her feet are hilarious. Her little coos and aahhs are my favorite thing ever. I love our little babbling conversations. It’s like she’s telling me about her life the way she talks and uses every facial expression imaginable. It’s so cute I could die. Eleanora is also a girl on the move these days with all her rolling around. She’ll do a complete 180 on her playmat! I’ll turn around for one second and she’ll be positioned differently. She’s a ninja that girl! She will also roll over on her tummy and then cry because she hates tummy time. Poor thing. We make her do it anyway at least for a minute or two. It’s getting so hard to get a good photo of her too because she’s such a wiggle worm! I have to earn it for sure. If she’s not moving she’s putting her clothes in her mouth or something. (See photo below. This is how most of our shoots turn out. She thinks it is funny to sabotage my attempts to document her childhood.) Oh well! She sweet cuddly phase was nice while it lasted.

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We love you little doll! You light up our lives.

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She is such a pretty baby! And her smile — so cute!

My Little Mirror

10weeks-1004 My little lady is getting quite the personality these days. Her smile melts my heart into a puddle on the floor. She is becoming so playful, just like her daddy. I’m sure she’ll be like him in a lot of ways, but most of the time it feels like I’m looking at a little mirror of myself. Physically, she is starting to look more and more like me everyday. It won’t be long before she acts like me too. I forget to pay attention to that sometimes because she’s so little. But then again, she’s so much bigger than she was and I only just blinked for a second. Molding and shaping starts now, even in the little things. Really, it’s the little things that matter most. We’ve had some pretty rough days. I’m still struggling to figure out how to balance all the loves in my life. Still, God is teaching me so many things through her. She is changing so quickly, but then again, I am too. I’m learning how to start the day with joy, because she feeds off of my mood. It all starts with me. I cannot teach her if I am not learning myself. I can’t help her go far I’m I’m not reaching. Right now it seems so easy just to “get by” and simply make it through the day. That’s not the life I want for her, so why would I settle for that myself? As I’m trying help her grow, she’s growing me.

I love my sweet little lady! She is the brightest light in our lives.

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I should remember to bust out my film camera more for her. These are my favorites. There is such beauty in the simple.

Eleanora | 2 Months Old

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We made it to 2 months! Hooray! Our sweet Elle has grown SO MUCH and I can’t believe how quickly these days are going by. Yesterday she rolled over on her tummy by herself. SOMEONE STOP TIME PLEASE! She is getting such a cute little personality. I really do love her to pieces. It’s definitely not easy being her mama, but I love my little tag-along! Most of the time she’s so good when we go out, so I can’t complain. We had her first shopping trip with Auntie Ashley a few weeks ago. (Start ’em early!) She traveled with me to a wedding 4 hours away and to several other things. We visited both grandparent’s houses for the first time this month and started going to church on Sundays too. She has these awesome sound canceling headphones so she can be around loud events. I mean, we are into music and are at a million youth events, so we had to have something. I’m not missing out on everything just because we have a kid. It’s actually more fun to go to everything with her…even if she has a blow out and spits up all over everything! She’s such a joy and I look forward to going on many more adventures with her.

Weight: This little chunk is just over 11 lbs! Hoorah! She is 25 inches long too. She has gotten SO MUCH bigger in the past two weeks! She’s in the 1 diapers now too. We ran out of the newborns just in time.

Clothing: We’ve finally outgrown her newborn clothes. I can’t snap the buttons on the little onesies any longer, which is a little sad. We actually didn’t get many 0-3 month clothes. I had to go buy her some jammies that fit! We’ll see if we can get by with just a few. They grow out of things so quickly that it’s kind of pointless to get much for each size! I can’t say that I don’t love to dress her. I *try* not to spend much on her. A little lady does need plenty of headbands though! And those moccasins are pretty much the cutest thing I’ve ever seen.

Sleep: We started doing a new schedule with Elle and it’s working BEAUTIFULLY! She has started sleeping around 7 hours some nights. (Cue the angels singing “Hallelujah!”) I’m a much happier girl now that I’m getting a little more sleep. Now, if only I could go to bed when she does…oh well! Her problems are mainly that she likes to stay up late at night…just like daddy. Sometimes we just can’t get her to fall asleep at night, but other nights she’s out like a light at 9pm. We’re working on it, but I know nothing will every work perfectly every night. When she’s having trouble, we can lay her on Jonathan’s chest and she will fall asleep almost every time. She loves him better than me…I’m convinced. She loves being around people when she’s awake, but then wants to be put down when she’s tired. We’ve started teaching her to nap in her crib and she seems to prefer it most of the time.

Eating: She eats like a champ! No problems yet…thankfully! I feel SO BLESSED! This was one of the things I worried about the most since she was born. As her emerging leg rolls will attest, she is getting to be a chub. I love it.

Mood: She’s generally pretty happy most of the time. She loves mid-mornings and early afternoons the best, but then again she smiles just about all day on most days. She gets mad when she’s sleepy, hungry or has gas…but hey, that’s me too! Haha! She has some bad days where nothing makes her happy, but she’s laid back and easy to please most of the time.

Loves: She’s less interested in her paci these days and more inquisitive about her surroundings. The playmat is a new favorite. She will lay there happily and swat at the toys for up to an hour sometimes, esepecially if she’s where she can see the fireplace. She LOVES looking at it! I think it’s hilarious. She smiles almost every time she sees it! She loves to play the “sit up” game where she grips my fingers and I pull her up. When she’s awake she really loves any time she can sit or stand up (with our help of course) and feel independent. Her expressions are the best. She’s also fascinated with Jonathan’s beard and will lick it if we let her. Although, she really likes daddy in general. She thinks he’s funny, but I do too! Bath time and being naked in general is also a favorite.

Doesn’t love: Dirty diapers. Being hungry. You know, the usual.

Things I want to remember: I wish I could bottle up her little noises. I never manage to get them recorded. I love her grunts and coos. She’s close to babbling at us. I wish I could freeze the way she looks at me when I go get her in the morning. Her smile first thing in the morning makes my day. She figured out the bottom lip pout this month. It’s hilarious. I’m sure there are so many other things, but maybe I’ll come back and put them here later. Sleep deprivation makes me a little foggy…you know.

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We love you E! Don’t get any bigger, ok? Thanks. (Just kidding, but seriously!)